I Want God At the Center of My Life

What Is Faith to a Bipolar Person

By: janiceisdayna

Written on April 15th, 2008

Right now its praying God keep me for beating up my family cause i'm tired of they sh@t i'm tried of getting walk on and i say something i never have the right words to win the battle i'll start to stand up for myself they shot me down i want to get out away form my family everytime i pray to leave i see i have to stay why i'm even being a good mother to my child he should be in school but hes not i never ever have the words to stop my family form walking all over me i want to be closer to God so bad it hurts my heart when i can't get anything right it hurts more not knowing which side of me is right and that to be right to the world means meds why can't God just answer one of my prayers just one i don't want bipolar can i be free i want to stop second guessing every moment of my life can i have the words to fight my enemys my family can my mind stop wondering God i don't need money i don't need to move yet i need my mind God all i want is my mind i been asking for years but yet nothing i'm stuck in my mind and my doubts and i cant get free i pray for freedom but nothing since i was 16 i prayed for it nothing if anything I'm worst than what i was i don't need nothing else just freedom of the mind so its been 11 years nothing why Should i have faith and keep praying for what another 11 years of hoping i'm better or meds for the rest of my life i hate pills why am i even here

By: janiceisdayna

Age: 31-35 , Female

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TolstoiFan

Read Isaiah 54. He promises peace to those tossed with tempest. I have been mentally ill for years and I know how frustrating it is sometimes. But He will heal you. He promised. The Word sayd By His Stripes I am Healed. and He heals all our diseases. It is not God's will for us to be mentally ill. The illness comes from Satan. Fight Satan off in the name of Jesus, by the power of the Holy Spirit. Resist the Devil and He will flee from you. God makes the high places low and lifts up the low ground to create an even, stable path for us. Hold on, help is on the way. I am praying for you. I pray you will receive the peace that surpasses all understanding.:)

Feb 22, 2012
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chinadoll37

I have had bi-polar disorder since i was 14 years old. I am now 37 years old. I surely understand what you are talking about. Living life in a fog sometimes getting angry when you can't contol it. Wanting to be able to keep your train of thought. What makes matters worse, is that since i have been on meds. since i was 14 years old. It is harder to find the right meds. that work for me. I keep my faith and say my prayers, yes i too want to be free from this. But i know that God follows me daily, and that maybe because what i go through, i can help others.

Nov 19, 2011
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PiscesDream

That's great advice from sandunguera.

I highly recommend that you find love for yourself no matter what.

God is love. He is always there for you. You must love yourself to love God. Let go and let God.

Blessings.

Nov 10, 2008
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sandunguera

I will pray for you...you are not alone. God loves you- try to focus on your spirit, not your mind.

Apr 15, 2008
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