I Love Him

We were in a perfect relationship, we didn't fight, we had been together for just over three years, we were living together, we had just had to move back to his parents house, and that's when it changed.
He started to become more and more distant, not kissing me for days at a time, and looking at me funny whenever I tried to touch him or make a joke. I thought he was just going through a phase of losing the passion in our relationship and I was so sick with chronic fatigue syndrome that I couldn't do a lot to help.
He started going out more often with his friends, which I couldn't do due to my illness. I began to cry at night, hoping it was just a phase, too afraid to ask and he was too cowardly to tell me the truth.
One day ( three days ago) I asked him what was wrong, and from there on it all fell apart. He told me he doesn't love me anymore, that he has felt this way since we moved back to his parents house, that we act more like friends than a couple and that when we go out to a party or with friends that it doesn't feel the same as it used to.

I cannot even begin to explain how much this break up has affected me, my illness has become worse, I have not stopped crying, I feel sick all day long and cannot eat, cannot sleep even though I am more exhausted than ever before, particularly with my chronic fatigue. He was the only one who kept me motivated to try to fight through this illness and the only one who I could talk to about anything. I miss my best friend, my boyfriend, my family, I have spent three years with him as the most important thing in my life.

I desperately want him back, just to feel his arms around me, every single thing reminds me of him.
kela77 kela77
3 Responses Feb 8, 2013

Thank you for sharing I know how you feel!

Hi, its always sad when the one we love rejects us and doesn't share the same affections we do.There is a reason for everything in this life. There is a way to get him back and make him love you like he never did before..but you got to be sure you still love him and not just want him cos you are afraid to be left alone.I can tell you what to do.

I am sorry for your pain. Leave town and have an adventure. This happened to me 20 years ago...and I still think of him..but I knew after a few years that it was for the best.
But...I will never love that way again. First real loves never go away. He was mine, but I was NOT his...he had his heart broken long before I showed up.