Mature, Heavenly Men Are Flexible And HonestMy children's father lives two streets away from my new home.
My husband, the man I've loved more than anyone in the world, lives four hours away in another state.
After going through hell to be together, our marriage began to crumble when I moved into his world. What I believed would be OUR life was His life with His kids in Their house with No rules and His ex calling the shots and His mother destroying yet another relationship. After sacrificing Everything for a gentleman who morphed into a greedy, paranoid, dishonest fake addicted to unmentionable xxx film, I finally escaped the asylum. It's been torturous to accept our fate after being so happy together. But the truth is I ignored many signs of his mental illness and the gentleman was the fake, short-lived persona I'd loved.
So much betrayal and cruelty should make me despise him, but I feel sorry for him and future victims of his psychopathy.
Never again will I give up my world for anyone. I fantasize about my husband getting well and living in my world, but that is never going to happen. He is sick, even dangerous according to experts.
The love of my life is still out there, living in my world of truth, trust, compassion, creativity, courage and mad passion! I am SPOON looking forward to meeting him and when he enters my heart and home, he'll never want to leave unless we leave TOGETHER into our new home.
girlcapitol 41-45, F 10 Responses 0 Feb 26, 2011