I think whats making our split hurt all the more is that he doesn't even care that we've split. If he wanted me then I could handle it because I would feel in control of the situation. I want him to want me, to want to see me and beg me to take him back - but he hasn't and he won't, it makes me feel rejected even though I ended it. Why does it feel this way? *sigh* I just want him to hurt as much as I do, I guess in my mind it tells me that he hasn't cared for a long time and that my marraige was over long before I knew it....... it seems it was all just a lie and never meant a thing to him, I think thats why the pain is so bad.