When Will It Be My Turn?

I feel as though I have so much to offer someone,...and I just want to be loved in return. I'm a good person, I know I can be an idiot, but I am a good person. I'm loving, compassionate, caring, loyal, intelligent, funny, ambitious, a great friend....so why am I alone? I just want someone to hug, and care for me when my family drives me insane, someone who likes me as more than a friend simply because they like ME that much... I want to sleep next to someone knowing that we're both comfortable enough to be ourselves even as we sleep. I want to make someone feel good about themselves the way they do for me. I've never been in a real relationship, but I feel that's what I need. For years now, I've let myself be used by guys that didn't care about me. Running at their beck and call in hopes that they felt the same way I did. I even put my energy into trying to fix their lives over my own. Maybe that's my problem. If so, I apologize for being such an idiot, but I just want to love someone and be loved in return. I feel more alone than ever right now...

completelymislead completelymislead
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 8, 2010

Not sure about that... that feels like desperation. I don't think I've gotten there yet. Or maybe I'm wrong, but something about attempting to find love on craigslist doesn't sit right with me.