Maybe I need to lower my expectations, but hope has been what has been keeping me alive, no matter how dim its light is. I want love. I want adventures and I want to learn. I want to be free of myself. I want to be healthy. I want my loved ones to be happy and healthy. I want to find a job that I enjoy but doesn't take over my life. I want to live, not just be alive. I want to run away from everything sometimes.