There Has to Be Something More....

I need more from life than to be stuck in this rundown town with no job prospects.   We tried to find new jobs around when tax money was here, so that we could move to a new place where we could both work and be fulfilled but... you know the economy blows and we couldn't find jobs elsewhere.

I want more from my marriage than 2 people who cohabitate... When we met we had such a connection, but between all the problems with life we had early in our marriage and my mother in law sticking a wedge between us.... it seems lost sometimes.

I want more from my friends than just people who pass by occasionally or call when they need them.  I remember at some point having deep connections with people.  I know when i got hurt i seemed to turn them away because i couldn't stand the betrayal, but i miss that kind of fun and loyalty i used to have.

When i imagined becoming an adult when i was a teen, i saw life as this great big adventure.  Too much to see, too much to do, too much to learn... and i wanted it all...

but I'm stuck in a rut and i cant figure out how to change.

go figure.

Shierke Shierke
26-30, F
1 Response Mar 18, 2009

Boy I'm where you are right down to the mother in law. My husband and I lost our jobs in January, relocated, and now..well... When you figure out how to get out of that rut please let me know. The feelings you mentioned are what led me to EP. Just the insane need to vent and connect with others on a deeper level.