I Hate Being Self-conscious >:(

My extreme self-consciousness....

-I can never look people in the face or their eyes for no longer than...a second! I get so uncomfortable and shy.

-No matter what I'm doing or where I'm at I'm constantly thinking and worrying about what other people around me are thinking of me. It's very stressful.

-Seriously, I have a problem with keeping my face visible with people I'm with or talking to, it's awful! Eye contact sure will arouse a connection..but I realize I'm always looking away and making sure they can't see my face because I always feel so ugly!

-I hate myself.

-I think nobody likes me.

-I can't do anything freely because I'm always worrying about other people. I just kind of freeze up.

-I never talk because I'm afraid of being judged or laughed at. I don't know what to ever talk about really..

-My ears are always on radar. I'm just trying to pick up what the people around me are saying about me, which a lot of times I do hear criticisms..wtf.

-I'm looking down a lot, if I see someone walking towards my way and I sense eye contact I quickly look away elsewhere, acting like I'm just in my own world.

-Any laughter or giggles I hear around me, I automatically assume it's made towards me.

Being too self-conscious sure does ruin your life :(

kittiex3 kittiex3
22-25, F
3 Responses Mar 15, 2010

I have the same problems, and i feel like they are intensified due to the fact that im 22 by under 5ft tall :( If i find any good tips for this, i will let u know :)

i havethe same habit.but i judge some situation the habit disappears.feel confident and love himher when i can stare at one's eyes.anyway you have love to share and give when you stare or look into their eyes. it is a faith problem .may god bless you.

I have felt the same exact way for the last 16 years. It has lead me to have real bad panic attacks. I know eactly where you come from.