I Have A Deep Desire To Be Dominated By My Husband.

I really want my husband to dominate me in all areas of my life. I want him to discipline me as needed and control me. I've had this fantasy for a long time even before I met my husband. We've been married for 3 years, but were dating for 4 before that. I'm afriad to tell him. What if he thinks I'm a freak or doesn't want anything to do with it. We have a very active sex life, however, I long to be tied, gagged, and whipped. I have got him to spank me and pull my hair and he knows I enjoy it, but I need more. We recently started doing anal sex and I love it. I have to be sure not show him it hurts or he'll stop. To tell the truth I kind of like it when it hurts a little. I love to suck his ****, but can't get past my gag reflex. I just want him to shove it down my throat and force me past it. I was a virgin when we met and he is the only man I've been with. I read bsdm s/m stories all the time online and they make me so hot. I always imagine I am the girl being forced to do all those submissive things while it's my husband dominating me. How can I get him to this?
shadowgurly shadowgurly
22-25, F
1 Response May 20, 2012

I completely know how you feel,I had the same issue with my husband,i want him to beat me,choke me,make me do certain things wether I want to or not (even though nothing falls into the "not" category).I didn't tell him for what seems like forever but through "heat of the moment" gestures (putting his hands on my throat)cued him in on what I wanted,sex is wonderful but I know I'm into bondage (the vulnerable feeling is a huge rush),being forcefully dominated,and beaten.They are all things I've fantasized about for the past 10+ years,even when I was a child and it wasn't sexual,I finally got up some courage and wrote a note, it not only told him how I felt and what I wanted,but I know I covered everything I wanted to tell him rather than get distracted by nerves or be interrupted trying to talk to him,it also it kinda de-sensitized me to the churning feeling I got in my gut when I try to say "I want to be beaten" not that I'm uncomfortable with the action,I just feel weird hearing the words come from my own mouth or something. Anyway-a note,I also put it in an envelope with 2 cards we got in a deck called "sex" it had man and womans choice,and told him "you don't have to do it,but if you try this,just this once, for me,anything goes for your choice" but I repeatedly told him he doesn't have to if he's really uncomfortable with it,and if he does it and never wants to again that's ok too,I know i honestly wouldnt ever want to raise a hand to him,all I can do at this point is wait and see if him seeing how much I enjoy it will be enough for him to be comfortable enough to do it again. fingers crossed for both of us,good luck ;-)