I Want My Husband to Want Me

Here is my poem-
I wish I were your Bible

If I were your Bible you would make time for me every day
Before you closed your eyes each night, its me you would hold with desire
You would turn my every page, reading my every word
Taking care to feel each letter on my pages.
When you put me down we would both feel satisfied as we closed another day
To meet again tomorrow.

Insread I am the wife you chose not to touch or make time for
And instead I fall asleep as you read each night.
I am not the coffie you drive to get each morning to sweeten your lips,
I am not the excercise machine you make time for each day to lighten your mood
I am not the sports page or game that brings you to excitement
And I am not the Bible you read each night.

All these things you can have without me, and when you push me far enough away, will you miss me when I am gone?
Lookin4GreenerGrass Lookin4GreenerGrass
31-35, F
6 Responses Jan 2, 2008

wow honey, i feel for you....i'm in the same place...i've even gotten rid of all my flannel pj's to be replaced by only soft, slinky, shorty nighties...i see him looking at my attire out of the corner of his eyes as he gets into bed, but he does not reach for me...it's a lonely lonely place....i feel for you...wishing you luck

So your hubby is into the bible and not you so much? (or is the bible your thing)<br />
Some people need their religion like oxygen (every body does need spiritual "oxygen" i guess) But often this is just another distraction..... <br />
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Most people spend their lives indulging in any distraction that takes them away from the uncomfortable questions whose illusive answers are the very same gaping holes they are so blindly trying to fill with all the wrong things.<br />
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Start looking into yourself (join a meditation class or something) open your self up a little....You have to look for life's answers inside yourself,.... if you can pry yourself open even a little your load will be lightened a lot.... <br />
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I hope your hubby is not a dead end in your life..... i would never leave my wife by the way.... but im not even sure if one of the reasons for this is cowardice.....its hard to say.<br />
good luck

ditto. tired of marriage counseling. it's time to let go.

I'm sooo sorry...I know exactly what you are going through... My husband does exactly like the poem... :( *hugs*<br />
Praying for you...

It is a beautiful poem artistically, but a devastating poem in its content. I am so sorry for what you are going through. I feel your pain completely. I want my husband to feel my every page, my every letter with care and interest, too. <br />
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You are a very poetic person. i am a musician and I am so grateful to have that outlet of art to sometimes heal me. keep writing. it does help somewhat, though it could never fill the void created by a sexless marriage.

wow.....{{hugs}}<br />
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not sure what else to say...:(