Yes I Did This

Early in my sex life with my now wife of 33 years we dabbled with toys. Early we bought a huge **** called a Dinger.
In the beginning I wanted to use it on her to make believe she was ******* a huge guys ****. After some time I let her use it on me.
Now I have to say first that no matter how to rationalize it having anything put up your butt is gay. Or in the least pretty dam kinky.
In those days it was the nasty look in her eyes as she slid it in and that pain in the beginning. Being the trooper she was once she got it in and it sank she would lean over and suck me off and **** my ***. It was the look in her eyes of a disbelief that I could take all of it in and for years we played. As is most kinky things once you *** you have after shock and embarrassment and in a way that is all part of the turn on. Years later down the line she now tells me straight out no, it is to gay. The last time she played I was dogie and have to say I did a better job ******* that toy then a women and when I turned around she had the look of a a horrified women and it was done no more.
I have tried to reintroduce it and she has answered by throwing out the toys. Even bought a less intrusive butt plug which has never been used. I have just about given up on that type of play and now have gone in a different direction. This is totally disgusting but the domination is the key..After I satisfy my wife she now jacks me off with my legs over her shoulders. The turn on is her stroking me and telling me to open my mouth. I never actually get it in my mouth but it is the act and that little evil look she gets.
Yeah kinky is my way.
Darksideofme255 Darksideofme255
56-60, M
May 21, 2012