I Can't Change Everything
i know i'm not the best person and i do things that i shouldn't do but it's the way i live.
all the things i do help me in other ways.
but if anyone i knew was doing the same stuff i'd be horrified
i guess it's cause i know i've everything under control,but my friends don't,that's why they're so mad right now.
they think i need help but they don't understand that i don't need it.
one of my friends made a list of all the things i'm doing that are hurting my body,and it was long.
but i know that without all these little things i'd lose control of everything and feel terrible.
i just want them to realise that i don't need help and if i ever do think i need help i'll get it.
i feel like i'm constantly hurting them by being me
i was always this way but they're not able to accept it
i'm trapped in a world of people who are telling me to stop doing things and start do other things but i just can't
i don't want to lose my friends but i can see that this is not easy for them
i don't know what to do anymore