To Be Honest

I dont really care if you judge me. Think I am mean or some kind of heartless monster. I actually like being known as those things. So go ahead and judge me.

I am just fine with being hated. Cant think any worse about me then I already think.
Arorin Arorin
22-25, M
22 Responses Jul 21, 2010

Ich liebe dich<33

no i mean we all judge others to early sometimes.

Happens to all of us I am sure.

I guess so..

what is bpd? <br />
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I dont feel bad about being smart.

Holy hell. You have BPD too? JK. <br />
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I mean in a way you won't feel bad about.

Well I definitely learned to use mine! <br />
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Yeah I dunno the emotions dont really change my personality just change what it is I seem to want.

Hah....I knew we had something in common. I know what you mean. And "gifts" can be hell...or wonderful. The trick is learning to use them.

There is only one person in me pickle I just switch emotions from time to time. <br />
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I was born with a gift tasmin that is all I can say about it.

Whatever you have done in your past you have the intelligence and strength to be a teacher and inspiration to others.<br />
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I wish I had your insight at your age

Now we're getting somewhere. I have like 4 friends like that. Hah....a much bigger circle if I think of it that way...?

I have more then one personality..

Bullshit. You wouldn't talk of being alone if you enjoyed it.

I am not beating myself up. Maybe I enjoy the thought of being heartless?

And you have to stop putting yourself down for that! *sighs* Why do you want to beat yourself up?

If my brother didnt save my dad I would have murdered him with my own hands.. but I have done a lot worse then that.

*bl<x>inks* You too?

I have done things that should have locked me away for life.

So has everyone. The point is people never stop growing. Changing. Improving.

I have done some pretty bad things pickle.

I don't hate you nor have I ever seen you as a heartless monster. And I stalk you! Muahaha. So I'd know. You are too hard on yourself.

Just because I treat my friends good doesnt make me a good person.