When I joined this group, I didn't mean it's okay for someone to just approach me saying "hey, you know you can tell me anything." No. That's not how it works. You can't just expect me to pour out all my current thoughts in a snap. Why? Because you're not going to get it. Why? Because it's probably going to have to do something with my personality or my attitude or my past experiences. You wouldn't know the entire story, because you don't know me. In short, I most likely wouldn't acknowledge your opinions, because you don't know the backstory. I don't want to narrate the freaking context that's long enough to be a novel. I don't want to refer to another story, and then realize you've never heard of it before.

I want someone I can tell anything to. I already found that someone. "Molded" that someone. So please, if you're going to talk to me, don't expect to be that someone. You wouldn't even want to be my someone, especially when I'm having those days when I'm needy and moody and emotional and hormonal (like right now). I'm not going to tell you everything, don't push it. If you want to know more about me, don't just ask me everything, use your immediate resources. Read my experiences before talking to me, I don't like people who don't read. This will make it easier for the both of us: if you don't like me then leave me alone.
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It is the internet.(: It is to be expected.

Can I say it again? The main point of this post was to compare everyone else to the person I call "someone" just because I miss him and I'm being emotional and needy today. q:

You can talk to me anytime. Xxx

If you want you can write me

U can tell me

You have a pretty crappy attitude, no offence just saying .
Believe me people who are writing you most probably don't give half a **** about your thoughts and stories , yet they waste their time so you wouldn't feel lonely and have someone to talk to.
" you wouldn't know the entire story , because you don't know me "
Let me ask you, did that someone that you already have knew everything about you before even saying the first hi to you ?
That's how things work, you talk with person , you tell person about yourself and when you feel comfortable you tell him about your thoughts and past, that's how people get to know each other and become friends.
You think someone really is so interested in you that they would push you to tell them things. They won't get anything from it, they doing it only so you could talk it out and feel better.
Obviously from the way you wrote it you are an extremely selfish person who thinks that everything is spinning only about you. You want people to know you instantly without giving them any effort in helping them to know you , nor trying to know them .

Wow - you go!

Spot on, btw

I admit, I have a crappy attitude (and have been told this even by my own mother). To be honest, the point of this story is more of "I don't want to talk to anyone right now except for this one particular person but for some reason I can't and everybody else seems to make me compare them to him" although by how you reacted I can tell it didn't quite appear like that.

About your question, if he already knew anything about me before saying hi, well of course not. The thing is, I never meant for him to be that "someone" and never felt the need to have that "someone" when he came to my life... goddammit now I miss him even more.

And yes, I am an extremely selfish person, but i don't think the world is spinning around me. I don't want people to know /everything/ about me. I just hate redundancy so much because I get frustrated very easily.

It was a spur of the moment venting post. I thought the post made it clear that I'm having "one of those days" (not my period) by leaving so many context clues, but hey, the feelings are worth documenting, right? That's what I'm on experience project for, anyway.

i dont think that its false to say that someone dont like to be pushed. Its not about information exchange, its about beeing listened. And i think its ok beeing selfish when you feel bad or hurt, because in this situations there is only one important person.

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Geez.... Ok