I never had a best friend until high school but, my best friend had a terrible family life, was abused and has anorexic but the one thing she does have is an amazing social life. I'm all always there for her no matter what she need, when she needs to cry, when she needs to talk, when she needs to complain, but I'm afraid that I can't do the same to her I can't tell her about my problems because I know she has so much worse than me I'm so jealous of the fact she knows how to talk to people and make friends I don't know how to do that. I'm afraid that I annoy people and that people don't like me I have to think that everything I say before it comes out of my mouth like if I say one wrong thing I'll lose a friend forever
shadowdancer47 shadowdancer47
18-21, F
4 Responses Aug 22, 2014

I'll be your friend

I feel the same way

Pain is pain it shouldn't be a competition, just because someone has it worse doesn't make what you're going through any less valid:)

That is beautiful thank you

Otherwise nobody could express their pain because we aren't holocaust victims or saw someone get murdered in front of us

I need help realising that the situation I'm in isn't as bad as I think it is, maybe you telling me what you're going through will help you and me

Okay well I have pretty severe depression anxiety disorder and slight Agoraphobia and if you don't know what agoraphobia is it means you're afraid of a lot of people in one place which is why had to drop out of school and start being homeschooled so I couldn't get through a day of school without having a panic attack and she really wants me to come back to school because we went to the same school and it was nice and I do miss certain things about public-school I just I can't do that anymore and I don't know how to make her understand

It does sound bad to have agoraphobia, I don't think I'd handle having very well, and given the depression and anxiety, getting out of school was probably a good choice. Your friend should miss you, and it's easy to see why you miss her. I'm going through something similar, but it's also completely different

I miss a lot of the things I used to be able to do in public school like I took dance and gymnastics and I loved it and I don't get to do that anymore

Is there no way for you to do those things outside of a public school?

Well I could take classes but they're pretty expensive

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