I Know It's Cliche....I've never been in love. I had one "girlfriend" when I was 18 for about a month. It was just one of those pointless, let's get together because. I feel like I've never needed to be in love so far. I feel like now I do though. I don't know if it's just because I'm lonely or depressed. I would like to be loved just for being me, understanding me and my opinions and my feelings. I would give so much to someone I loved. I think at times, everyone needs someone to love just to get through the challenges life confronts. I'm in that challenge now. I feel like giving up. I've thought of suicide and how to do it if I really do want to. I've never told anyone explicityly I have thought about it because I'm afraid they'll just be awkward and move on. I can understand but I really feel it shouldn't be a taboo anymore. The rates of suicide and depression has increased. I think this says something about our society as a whole.
See how I diverge...
I know I shouldn't pray to God for ever wanting someone, but I will pray for him to send someone in to my life... I just don't think I will last much longer otherwise. :'( Tearing up writing this.
disillusionedkid 18-21, M 0 Sep 10, 2011