What Being a Big Sister Really Means.

It seems to me that no one can understand why I CAN'T ever leave where I live.  At least not for a long time.  I actually love the area I live in, it was voted best place to live in America last year.  But I could give that up, I'm sure there are places that are more beautiful, less populated, whatever.  But the reason I can't leave is because I am the big sister to five kids.  Two of them, the two oldest, are at annoying stages in their lives.  They can be difficult at times, but we're brother and sister.  That's a bond that I don't take lightly.  We've grown together, and whether they like to admit it or not, they need me and I need them.  I tried living away from here.  After I graduated I went to new york for four months.  It wasn't long before I was miserable.  We're a tight knit family, and while I'm not getting along with my mom much lately, that won't ever change.  If I miss out on my brother's high school football games and don't have the chance to meet up with my sister for lunch to talk about our husbands and kids, I'll always have a hole that can't be filled otherwise.  Besides those two, I have two brothers and a sister that are much younger.  Their lives have been hell from the moment they were born.  My aunt and uncle mean well, but they have already raised their children so they are worn out on childhood traditions and such.  At Christmas they didn't even set out the stockings or even try to make it look like santa came.  I am the only person in this world that will ensure that they have little memories like that.  And I don't want a huge lecture on how stockings don't matter at Christmas.  Small children deserve fun childhood memories.  Its important to me to be at all their sports, school plays, birthday parties...  I love them so so much, I can't imagine only watching them grow up in pictures.  Yeah, I can't wait to move out of my house and have my own place, but for goodness sake I want to be able to pick up the babies at least one weekend out of the month.  I want them to know I love them, and I don't want them to think I abandoned them like their parents did.  I am so sorry that people can't understand this.  I have a very maternal, family oriented personality and I want to keep my family near me.

urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
22-25, F
1 Response Feb 14, 2009

Its good you guys get along. I don't always get along with my family, but I still love them alot.