Shout It OutI need a place that I can shout out to the world all my accomplishments. I'm not looking for "Oh wow you're great." I just need to feel proud of what I do. If I don't feel proud I will end up getting drained. So I will come to EP and shout. Noone has to listen. Hear I go...
I'm a religious man, husband of a wonderful wife, and hard working father of three. My wife has anxiety and is grouchy and overworked. She is not assertive in our marriage and I don't feel her love. It is hard for me to shower her with love when I don't feel it and when there's so much going on. One of my kids is very energized and uses up all our energy from the time shes up until late at night.
I have to be a good husband regardless how hard it is. I have to be a good father no matter what. It is very hard. I'm working to support my family and I'm trying to expand my business so that I can be more successful. A lot of stress in and out of my home. I'm not whining nor am I giving up. I lean towards success in all fronts: from the business side, from the husband side and from the father side. I will succeed.
Everyday, every single day, from morning till late at night, I deal with all the stressors. I will be happy, very happy. But right now I'm lying if I say I am happy. I'm not depressed but it is hard. I end up giving up sometimes. I rarely, like once a month, have sex. I'm religious so I never had out of marriage affairs, but trust my I get tempted. I do fail in my religion and out of my "loneliness" I will watch a quick ten minute flick online of some sort of po*n and mastur**te. Unhappy but its a fact.
I will come here to shout my hard work till I am proud.
Today I got upset at my daughter, again. I was not even given a hello from my wife when I came home. I will be happy. I will succeed. I will shout it out here.