Glow Girl

When my mind races 100 mph, I start thinking about things that don't matter. Plus, the things that do matter, cause me increased grief. I found if I take a 1/2 hour break. Think of other things.........after a 1/2 hour I'm ready to start over. Starting over I force my self to stay on the most important project or problem.

Except when it comes to family issues, they are an ongoing issue with no light at the end of the tunnel.

One step ata time and focus. :)

I understand this as my mind runs 100 mph some days, also most of the reason that I have so much trouble sleeping at night, it won't always shut off. At work I start on a task and do 5 more that I see on the way, same at home!

I've known you for such a short time... but I can tell you already that you are an awesome friend! I think I know what you are saying though. As one's circle expands here at EP, you divide yourself up among that many more people. And it's hard to please everyone as much as you once did. I think we who are your circle members can help you by cutting you some slack if you can't answer right away, or what-not! That way we can all help each other be our best we can be!

I do love that metaphor, of getting tangled and trimming your sails. That expressed need to stay on keel.

you must have truly thought about yourself and the way your life was up until this point. thank you for writing, it put my world into perspective.

I loved reading this. I think I will write something on "the core self."

You need to add

I WAS (and am) AN EXCELLENT WRITER

This is a beautiful piece of writing Glowgirl :)

I kinda like it when you flap. :-P

Thank you Dean...



*giggles at the image of DeanSquirell*



That "core self" is what I lose though...to focus on housework or kids or friends or other relationships or whatever...I lose focus on that core self. I can't seem to hold her together, because I always end up trying to be what others expect/want me to be.



And so I lose myself and become someone else...



And am left wondering if I lose the things that are important to me because I am now different, and less likable somehow, or I am unsettled because I am not me...or if I never was enough in the first place.

If youre erratic i must look like a squirrell on the freeway. My life is continuosly in flux. Work, relatiobships, finances all effect my life and influence who i am. Ive been where you are and will be again. Last year it was the passing away of my mother and the ripples are still there. Your core self never changes so be true to it.