Doing The Right Thing?

And this, of course, is the selfish part of me, the part that wants to ignore reason and the fact we hardly know each other beyond the fact we enjoy spending quality time together as friends.  This is the part of me that doesn't want to acknowledge I don't have a job right now, could not provide a very exciting time together, who doesn't even have my own private apartment where we could make out if we were actually that way.  This is the part of me that wants you, kind of, to give up your dreams of travelling and of being the best you you can be, because I think you can't be happier with anyone else, even though you still have a boyfriend.  Actually, I want you to continue to follow your desires to travel and be happy, as long as I'm the one you return to at the end of each day and every season.  I'd love to share the rest of my life with you, ****, if only it were possible, if only I knew all the cards would fall into place and we'd be happy together.  I know that is not the case.  I need to be honest with myself about it, though, before doing the right thing and letting go of the dream.
UnderEli UnderEli
46-50, M
2 Responses Jul 25, 2010

Thanks for your comment. The path ahead is currently unknown -- a vacant trail. I think the future will be bright.

very touching, its so hard to let go of dreams...hope someone else comes along soon.