Better And Not Bitter Is What I Want

Although we are told by everyone that each one is unique. But we can't ignore the fact that we wanted to be a better person than what we are now. Well that's all what i wanted to be. Since a kid I am always shy with new unfamiliar people, i was bullied for being a nerdy-type, people think i am arrogant for being a silent type of person, i don't interact more often with others and i can say I am totally "miss invisible". You know how empty it felt when i feel out-of-place, to be left up and ignored? It's really bad. Even until now that im in college, the invisibility still lingering on me like my shadow. I still have the difficulty it comes to making friends. That's the reason why i want to change and improve my whole being in order for me to be included in a group. I want to be more confident. But the real reason why i have to change is to be a BETTER me and not to the reason to be accepted by my peers. It's up to them if they like me or not. If they like me then great and if they don't..I know where to stand..