Hope

Ive always been a quiet yet a happy child. Im not a person that talks to people about private matters, not my parents, not my siblings and not my bestfriends. But, still, ive had a good happy childhood with great parents (my 2 heroes) Life seemed to stop about a year ago when i 1st heard my parents fight with each others. They were yelling, i was crying. i have never seen them like this and my quietness seemed to just add up more and more. This has been going on for almost 2 years, they live in the same house but they dont talk to each others. i feel like i cant talk to them, i cannot ask them why they are acting like this. I am so angry all the time it kills me. I want to scream, yell, keep screaming and hve no one comment. I cant talk to anyone, i dont want to talk to anyone about it. It is affecting my grades, my health, my sleep, everything. I want to go back to normal. I wanna go back to visit my parents who i dont live with, smiling. I wanna repeat our family trips, i wanna help, i wanna cry. I cant, i just cant. I feel i am losing my parents and i just shut up about it. I dont know if talking will help, but my quietness has even taken anyway my positive energy, optimism, hope..i just wanna go back to how i was.
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Jan 7, 2013