Randie

Being a crossdresser is'nt all about dressing like a girl its wanting to be a girl. My entire life i new i was born in the wrong body. As a child i new i was different wanting to dress like my mother. I hated the way i looked and felt. When my mother found out she went out of her way to make fun of me. I remember we were all in the car going to my grandmothers house and out of nowhere she tells my dad that I'm gay and that i had been wearing her clothes. My two brothers looked at me and laughed.I was so imbarrest and cried all the way there. But after getting there the first words out of her mouth to my grandmother was your grandson is gay and continues to tell her the whole story. After that on a daily routine she would ask me in front of everybody, who's clothes are you wearing today. Needless to say i HATE my mother.But through all of that i still want to be a woman.Well i do consider myself a woman i just dont look like one and i HATE, HATE,it. I would do anything to become a real girl. I know theres surgeries but who can afford that. I'm now trying to find anybody that can help me find the help to get hormone replacement but hav'nt had any luck yet.I'm now 41 years old and i would love to spend the rest of my days as the woman i should have been to begin with.