I Want To Be A Geek & I Like Computers

I spend too much time on the internet looking at images, playing music,reading about how to html tutorials. how to fix a laptop articles cause I am broke and can't aford one plus I liketinkering with them. How does the U.I. work. I probably maybe have an infatuation. I think that there is so much to learn and so little time. My dream is to own a lap top with my name written in bold letter Robert is Geek and proud of it. I have played with the linux O.S. called Ubuntu I really became found it in the short time I was able to use it. My X-Girl computer crashed and this was my oppertunity to use linux. I had fun with but, that fun like all fun must soon end. 

I would like make a computer with a cusom operating system made for Gaming so the computer games or other games played on it would be lightning fast. I actually talked to an inventors aide company who was willing to help me out for $500 but of course I was broke & unemployed. The only reason I am putting this information out htere is because I really would like to see it happen even at my own expense so many other Gamer would benefit. I wish I made a blue print or had it copyrighted. It would help me be able to take care of my mother in her old age and she could be finally proud of her son.

There are a video program that teaches you to become a programmer I got so excited but soon the excitment died down when I came back to reality that I have no money to purchase that. I could go to school and learn it but school is so over crowded and teachers underpaid. Will I really learn anything if the teacher is worried about the paycheck not the students understanding  the class.

One day I will be?