First One

One of the worst parts about growing up is the failed attempts to recapture your childhood.  I think about the things that made me happy as a kid, toys, books, games, activities, etc.  In my mind, they look so perfect.  So I find them online and buy them or download them or I dig them out of the attic or whatever, and they just aren't satisfying anymore.  I remember why I didn't bother to keep track of them in the first place.

So that's what really sucks about growing up.  It isn't that the experiences are gone, it's that you're too jaded to appreciate them.  I can't enjoy Saturday morning cartoons anymore, no matter how much I try.  I even bought DVDs of the shows I used to watch as a kid, and mostly I'm just bored with them.  I don't just want my kid's toys back, I want my kid's mind.  I want to have never played Super Mario Brothers 3; I want to have never seen that episode of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles; I want to open up those Micro Machines for the first time.  I just want to go back, because this is too hard.  I'm no good at this anymore.  I got old, but I never matured.  I'm just a 26-year-old loser living in his parents' basement.  My friends are getting married and having kids, and I'm terrified of the future.  I miss Summer lasting forever.  I miss the weekends meaning I didn't have to do anything but play sports.  I miss being able to eat whatever I wanted without a problem.

If there were any way to go back, at all, I'd give anything to do it.

TheyCallMeBruce TheyCallMeBruce
26-30, M
4 Responses Nov 5, 2009

I felt like I was reading a reflection of my own life.

Me too!

" I can't enjoy Saturday morning cartoons anymore, no matter how much I try."<br />
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=(<br />
u touched my heart with your honest words..

i bet you never had an air fix model or a olly of teady collection...<br />
they say that as you grow older you never leve your toys but get biggerones.....from the matchbox car to the real thing...<br />
try the exotic a cross dresser...ok it sounds beond the limmit but its new and its playtime....not a life style ...hmmmmmmm<br />
throw a party with a theme to it....say star wars or harry has plenty of charicters and have a party cos you said when you grow up you would have partys cos you were denyid partys or mum and dad were downstairs having an evening in with freinds and and and<br />
its not lost....