In The Baby Aisle
I could be pregnant(my dr even said theres a chance), but here's the problem:I don't want to get my hopes up! I have about 8 days until I can test. I am going crazy! I found myself in the baby aistle at walmart. So that made,my curiosity worse. I called a friend I thought I could talk to but she was having her own problems. I am always putting others first. I never got around to what was bothering me. And also while I was in the baby aistle all those feelings about the baby I miscarried came rushing back. I am almost at an utter despartion to be a mom. I don't know what I am going to do if that test back negative.I almost starting crying in the store thinking about it. Its almost my hearts cry for God to take away thoughts of pregnancy if I am not pregnant. How do I first make to the day I can test and secondly, how do I move forward if I am not pregnant? And it seems like no one understands how I feel. "Don't dwell on it" they say. You have stuff on with your body like this and have your dreams smashed over and over and tell me how you feel. Help how do I get past this?