I am currently 30 and happily married to a man who loves me for me. We have been trying to conceive for a few months now, but I haven't been able to conceive. I just want to be a mum so badly, and I can't wait to hold my baby in my arms and tell him or her how much I love them.

I recently join a trying to conceive facebook group, and it seems like almost everyone has gotten a positive but me. I know I should be happy for them, but I can't. I just keep myself up night after night, crying. My husband doesn't know the pain I'm going through, and I don't want to worry him.

Truth be told, I have had two abortions before, the first was when I was 17, I was raped. The second was when I was 25, my ex husband didn't want the baby. My current husband knows about my previous marriage, but he doesn't know about the abortions. I sometimes fear that the reason why I'm not able to get pregnant is because God is punishing me for the previous two abortions.
julymoon julymoon
31-35, F
1 Response Aug 23, 2014

see a gynecologist

We have visited a gynecologist, and all was good.