Change of Heart

Although the title is "I want to be a Sufi," I sometimes think I already am a Sufi in my heart.  I don't seek to be labeled as anything, but the Sufi philosophy of Hazrat Inayat Khan and the poetry of Hafiz and Rumi ring my heart like a bell.

About four or five years ago, my heart (during prayer) just kind of broke.  It was like a block wall came down, and ever since, my heart has been literally overflowing with love for God.  Not always, and not on a regular basis, but more now than before. 

I don't seem to have a religious preference anymore.  Everything in my life is gradually diminishing except for that love.  I speak of heart only, because I still struggle with my mind, my ego, my lower self.

If anyone knows of someone who answers questions (besides a shrink, thanks), I have a number of them.  Thanks for listening.

unity1 unity1
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2 Responses Feb 22, 2009

You might want to read "Degree of the Souls" translated by Mostafa Badawi.

try thinking of ego /naffs as a donkey and ask if u are riding the donkey or is the donkey riding u. Salams