Long Time

It has been 58 years and of those 58 years I can remember wanting every day for 54 of them to be female. I just gets harder and harder. Age does not bring acceptance.

Victoria51 Victoria51
56-60, F
2 Responses Mar 1, 2010

aybe you admire the ways women live or what they have that's why you wish to be a woman, just an opinion. I am a woman. I grew up in vietnam where women have very little rights or privilege. So, when growing up I wish for more than anything to be male, being able to say things more freely and go places, date, go school etc... <br />
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I moved to the US when I was 16. Slowly I find that boys treat me really nice because I look above average when I dress up and wear lipstick..lol.<br />
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I began to take advantage of being female and demand all kinds of things under the sun. needless to say soon I became spoil. <br />
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Then I learn the harsh lesson once I have kids and no longer look the way I used to be. You know what women are precious at young age, then we are like perishible goods that expires with time.<br />
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Also, carrying a baby inside the stomach for 9 months and 10 days is comparable to being handycapped for all those many days. And... I can tell you that going through child labor is almost like having a trip to hell and back! Swear that it's the truth. Been through it three times.<br />
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Men mentally give women value mark down as they age.<br />
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So, if you can choose it, be a man.<br />
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I myself look completely woman so I cannot choose. <br />
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One more thing, no matter how beautifully female you look, if you are sterile and cannot bear children, you won't have long term value around a man.<br />
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One thing I know, we human have both male and female hormones in our body and (all) of us are capable (biologically) to live male or female styles.<br />
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Hope you find my comment useful.<br />
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Sincerely,

You're right. As we get older, at least for me, the desire is to merge with society as the woman I am.<br />
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when I was young I passed and that was then. Now, I just want to be and to fit in at home, work, church, etc.<br />
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Be safe and take care.