Do I Mean Anything To Anyone?
It's a nagging and yet lonely feeling to have an existence where I question whether I truly mean something to the people in my life. The people I work with laugh it up and get along with me, with the exception for one person that I really don't like. But, do I mean anything to them? There are those who claim to be friends, but how significant is it that they say that, when their actions outside of work are not exemplary of proving themselves to be people of their words. My ex once said that I was important to her and that she genuinely cared for me, but that too turns out to be just a fabrication as she's done everything possible to treat me like her enemy in every way. The so-called family that I have is so disconnected beyond recognition that even if I get to speak with them, I question whether or not I am heard. So where is my place in this world? Where exactly do I fit in and mean anything to anyone? Because, the validity of what people say and what they do to prove it are two separate contrasts. I've tried to look past this factual existence, but cannot take it anymore and that's precisely why I'm here, sharing what I feel, how I feel and hoping that maybe, just maybe I'll get to see that there are more people like me who will make effort to comments and share....because after all, isn't that what being appreciated is? It's showing people you may know or not know that their words or experiences mean something by sharing a simple comment or encouraging word.