I Guess Ill Save My Kindness For Someone Else..
My ex and I are still living together n still seeing eachother. But he has always had an anger problem and never notices everything I do. Even with a pretty much debilitating tummy condition I still do a lot n I still get told I do nothing. Or that my kindness is anoying. But then ten minutes later hes sweet on me. I think he's bipolar because well my mother and brother have the diagnosis n he treats me as bad as them. so I try to stay around n be understanding of his constant mood swings, of his abuse and try to know its not his fault n no one deserves to be given up on. I'm a Buddhist so I practice patience daily. But every day he says something so hurtful and devistating to the soul. I feel my spirits breaking as we speak. :'( I just want someone even a friend or a family member to give me some love and affection, i get zero affection. My heart hurts every day.