I Feel Fine So Why Do They Say I'm Crazy?

I am what most people would call a bossy person. I run my world and everything and everyone in it. I hate to be told what to do by anyone, and am famous for my strong will. The problem? In my secret heart I have been waiting for the man strong enough to bend me to his will. I can't and won't give up my control. When I find a man that I think can doit, I put him through his paces. Any sign of weakness is enough to get him eliminated. I even went through a couple of abusive men (who learned what it was like to have a woman hit back). I don't want to be abused. I want to be controlled. I need someone to tell me how to live my life (it is a mess), straighten out my finances (I make good money, but spend it), and of course be dominant in bed. I want it, but I don't know how to get it. My friends and family would never believe this was me. They would think I was sick, but I feel just fine. Is there no one stronger than me?
CrazyandIknowit CrazyandIknowit
51-55, F
2 Responses Dec 8, 2012

I so relate to what you have said. I have the same desire of secretly wanting to be told what to do. I share in your frustrations. ~Annie

celotape a game controller 2 you and get someone to follow you around and pretend to control you. the effect of placebos will kick in and u will be a controlled person. x