One Can Wish, Right?

Okay so maybe saying I want to be happy all the time is stretching things a bit much; but I do want the carefree days from when I was a child back again.  I don't recall too many times when I didn't feel happy, or I didn't smile.  As time passed and I got older I find that even smiling seems to hurt.  I just wish I could find that one thing or any number of things that would make me happy again.  I wish I could find reasons to smile on a daily basis, even my son and my husband is not enough to make this happen anymore.