To Be One of the Gang

I want to be happy and for some reason I am really trying hard to be. My emotions are all over the place, I can't figure out whats rite or wrong. I want and need to be happy again. Why is it so hard not to just say I want to be happy and poof be happy. I don't get it.

MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik
26-30, F
4 Responses Jun 12, 2008

Yeah. I think too much too sometimes. Wish there was a button that makes it go into rest mode.

I feel you on that one. I am so aggrevated at my friends and family all the time for things that they do, and I wish that I could just let it go and be happy with my life. I know in my head that there is no such thing as normal and that there is no reason to think that you can only be happy if you are normal. I wish that my heart would accept what my head knows and be happy.

Tekka, I know...I shouldnt be that hard on myself. I think alot of my misery comes from thinking to much. I just can't let it be sometimes. I have to learn how to let things go and to be more accepting of the one's I love.

Eh, "normal" people just fake it better. Happiness can be sooo over rated sometimes. Sometimes we all just need a day to get all the grumps out...just be a real stinker...then when it's all out, maybe happiness comes around the corner (as long as we do the grump thing far away from anyone who'll be annoyed by it, lol!)