I Want To Be Held And Told Everything Will Be Okay.

I want to be vulnerable, I want to express things and cry without feeling so much guilt. I'm not as strong as you think as I am, not always. I'm not good, I'm not perfect either. My feelings catches me off guard sometimes. They flood my entire heart with these excessive amounts of sadness that I didn't even know I had inside of me. It both fills me up entirely, and makes me feel empty... I need somebody, any tangible form of human contact that is enough to listen, to take in, and to feel. Enough to take away any small ounces of my sadness, just by their ability to care... I feel isolated in my own world and surroundings, as if all my relationships skipped out on that "what friends are for" clause. I don't want to drag them through the mud, have to make them put up with this. It must be frustrating when someone doesn't feel better after the first "cheer up". I don't feel better, it's not like those two surprisingly insensitive set of words make it alright again. I don't want to be the straw that breaks the pony's back. So I keep it in until it can't stay in. I keep it in until I cry for no reason, or over the smallest things. It baffles my family and boyfriend to no end. It's so much to carry, but it's even harden being the burden...

I want to be held and told everything will be okay.
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5 Responses Aug 11, 2010

dont worry ɑbouht hɑving someone too love iknow yhue get lonely & everything but in time yhure shinning ɑrmer will come trust mee :)<br />
in time someone ɑnyone wil pop out of no-where & yhure know his thee right person yhue will feel iht in yhure heɑrt.

HEY BOO IF YOU EVER NEED A FRIEND COUNT ON ME UR A BLESSING SENT FROM ABOVE UR HEAR FOR A REASON REMEMBER UR SPEACHAL!<br />
PEACE AND LOVE TO YOU MY FRIEND XOXOXO!

I long for that as well. My feeling is that whatever wonders you seek, are within yourself. Self-love is something that I always try to practice. You are your own best friend and greatest enemy. Yet at the same time I still wish to share my life with another. When I truly need to have this experience of a relationship with another, I know that it will come in whatever form and name that will be. It may seem that I am talking about myself but I mean to give you advice too. As the mayans once said, "In lak'ech" "I am another yourself."

I long for that as well. My feeling is that whatever wonders you seek, are within yourself. Self-love is something that I always try to practice. You are your own best friend and greatest enemy. Yet at the same time I still wish to share my life with another. When I truly need to have this experience of a relationship with another, I know that it will come in whatever form and name that will be. It may seem that I am talking about myself but I mean to give you advice too. As the mayans once said, "In lak'ech" "I am another yourself."

Oh, I am sorry you are going through a hard time. :(<br />
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Everyone needs people to talk to, who care, and yes "cheer up" is the worst. <br />
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Maybe try telling them that you don't want them to have to DO anything about it, that you just need to talk to someone. That is all. Maybe they feel overwhelmed because they feel that you expect them to do something about it, when all you need is someone to hug you and just listen.