Right Now

Right now I wish there was someone that would hold me and rock me and tell me everything is going to be ok, things will work out. I want to be held and rocked like a little girl, even though Im obviously not a little girl anymore. I can't always just speak up and tell what's bothering me and why I want to cry, I am used to holding things inside. But sometimes I just want the security of someone's arms around me, rocking and comforting me, assuring me that everything will be ok, doing this until I fall asleep. Is that babyish? Im grown up, twenty now, but still feel like very young girl on inside. I try to remain strong and confident on the outside, but on the inside I am steady crumbling. I need help.
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2 Responses May 23, 2012

I am 40, and I feel that way at some point most days. Sometimes, I even tell someone. She's my closest friend, and I am so lucky. Not only does she not think its babyish, she will pull me into a hug & rock me & let me rest my head on her shoulder like a child & tell me I'll get through this. I think everyone needs a friend like her.

I think everyone needs that, and I think many people feel that way inside. I feel if my grasp on life has been reduced to a thread and each day that thread gets smaller.