Just Too Good To Be TrueNow it can be told, after I deleted a good friend seven months ago.
I can no longer take the good things he has been showering me. The attention, the kind of respect. The affections and the kind of love he shows. The displays of affections I get. I can no longer take all the good things about him, it's like too much of an existence. I become everything I am not. Or maybe almost everything I'm actually scared to be. His passion just tortures my innerself. I can feel feel his sincerity, and at the same time fear and felt alone. The attention I can't bear to take. No one has ever shown such honesty and truth.
Fear of the thought that bitterness would eventually come after the sweetness has melted. I become paranoid and made a drastic move, and deleted him from my circle. And it has never been the same between us.
I felt so sorry and numbed with sorrow. But the bitter-sweet thoughts has always been there to sustain me.
But his words to his last message was quite a strike " I wish I cud challenge you to get a guy who can love you more than me ", to which has left me lingering at the thoughts of him for a while.
ladyryan 41-45, F 14 Responses 7 Jul 24, 2012