My Life Is Just So....

I've been really stress and sad and feeling all mixed up, and I don't know what to do ( thank you sublime). I live alone I sleep alone I wake up alone I eat, shower, everything alone and its really getting to me. 

The bottom line is that I am lonely and sad and i really need to be held for a long time and told that all my fears all my worries will be okay and i just need to relax. 

I am not a person that can be alone, and I am a person to be touch and I need to be hugged daily and I don't get that in my life and its really getting to me at this point. The other day I was with a "friend" and while we were you know.... the best part was when he was holding me kissing me and I honestly don't feel anything for. 

I'm just stress and sad and really need someone to hold me close

Starbuck82 Starbuck82
31-35, F
1 Response Mar 3, 2010

I know how you feel I've been lonely for nearly a decade it started to get to me and for five years the doctors could see my behavior started to change I started getting violent.Until they finally gave me a medicene that could calm me down I dont need that medicene anymore since the condition was temporary and my mother told the doc that I have been lonely for nearly 6 years now and he said thats most definetly the source of the problem.That was 4 years ago and Ive been starting to go out more often meeting new people because loneliness is the scariest thing there is.And even though it gets harder everyday I also get stronger everyday to not let the silence or the loneliness get to me I never want my behavior to get like that.And dont worry everything is temporary even loneliness you'll meet someone who can always be there for you and I hope you find him soon.