I can never seem to find a relationship that works. Whether they're a friend or an enemy, whether they're close or distant, whether they're kind or hateful it just never works. It was my birthday on Friday and I know I'm not supposed to tell anyone, but when I was making my wish upon blowing out the candles, I couldn't actually think of one because I have nothing to add to my life at the current state. Then it struck me, I never realised it, but I am a loser when it comes to love and relationships and all that. I can never find someone who just has everything to me. But then I did. She was perfect, the only thing wrong with her was her distance from me. There's a reason why we broke up, but I won't share that, it's a bit private. There is a girl at my school named Juliana. She's my best friend and I've always had a huge crush on her, even when I was in my previous relationship! Juliana knows this but she has a boyfriend who is, ironically, also very far away. Everyday, Juliana hugs me and kisses me and tells me she loves me, but I don't know what to think of it. I'm the only guy she does that too and she does have other guy best friends. Every time she shows me some texts from herself and her boyfriend, I feel a little more depressed every time inside. But then I remember, that she is my love for this stage of my life. Nothing tops her, so by that meaning, her happiness is everything to me. I wouldn't just die for her, I would die to see her smile. I don't know what to do. I'm sure someone has been in this situation before, tell me what you think I should do. Until then, I guess whatever's gonna happen,
Is gonna happen for a ******* reason c:
HappensForAReason HappensForAReason
18-21, M
1 Response Aug 30, 2014

I know exactly how you feel, message me if you need meπŸ’•πŸ˜

Maybe I will c: thank you