...Even half as much would be enough to last me a lifetime.

fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
46-50, F
2 Responses Mar 28, 2009

And I am glad I did. I think you hit the nail on the head for a lot of women. I call it the beauty and the beast syndrome. The beast wants to be loved for himself, and then he is loved for himself and becomes this beautiful prince in the Disney movies. However in real life our prince isn't like the one of fairytale proportions and we wonder why we can't have the Beauty and the Beast love. Is it really that we need that love or is it that we have fallen for the fairytale?

I think about this a lot. I mean, I know my husband loves me. He loves me a lot. It's just that I don't always FEEL loved (there REALLY needs to be a way to italicize things in comments so I don't feel like I'm yelling at people).<br />
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I know it's the complaint of every woman out there in a serious relationship, but I have always felt like I put more in than he does. That I, in short, care more than he does. That I must love him more than he loves me. <br />
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My brain tells me that's not true, but my brain has a surprisingly little voice, kind of like Minnie Mouse, while my feelings sound more like Ursula the sea witch when she turns into giant Ursula wielding thunderbolts and causing mayhem. I'm really not sure where all these Disney-themed metaphors are coming from, but you get the picture. <br />
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What I really mean to say is, you are certainly not alone in these feelings of loneliness. They are very difficult and depressing, or at least they are for me. I've tried talking to my husband about them, but he just feels really guilty and doesn't really understand or know what to do. <br />
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This is a long answer to a short story, and I may be making a lot of assumptions about your actual situation. But as you can tell, you touched a nerve of mine. :)