By the Love of My Life...

   I love unconditionally. I am loved unconditionally by my mom. She's the only one & there is a part of me that isn't so sure about that. I wonder why it is so hard to accept and love others.

   I want to meet someone, get to know them, become good friends and have our feelings run deeper. I want the kind of love where you have bad times, but nobody leaves. We work through it together. We fight, but we make up because our love and respect for one another is so much stronger than our anger. I want a partnership that will last a lifetime with someone who will treat me as well as I'll treat them. I want someone who is willing to work with me.

   I use to think that's what I had with Shane.... I should have known better. He'd proven to me time and again that he'd run at the first sign of trouble, but I thought when he gave up his life, and moved with me across the country that he was committed to us. I was wrong.... He couldn't handle the "fishbowl" existence, the lack of money, the lack of friends. He left me, alone, to deal with everything by myself. I want someone who isn't scared of hard times, and will stick around for the long haul. Is that too much to ask?

   How bad is it you may wonder? Well, he's been gone for 3 months and he hasn't called me once. I have received a total of 3 emails from him and nothing else. No christmas card, nothing. I'm still thinking of him and letting him know that. Guess he isn't thinking so much about me...... I'm a pathetic, stupid fool!! Aren't I?

   Bye...

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4 Responses Feb 20, 2009

No ... you are not pathetic ... "I want the kind of love where you have bad times, but nobody leaves"<br />
.... you know what love is ... the biggest problem is that the people are not able to deal with the bad time .... it happens in every relation ... people can never have a relation without bad times ... if both the partners understand this ... everything will go fine ... I think that people should fight the bad time not run away from it .... like you said .. I am sure you will have a very good love relation when you meet your right person ... good luck :)

No ... you are not pathetic ... "I want the kind of love where you have bad times, but nobody leaves"<br />
.... you know what love is ... the biggest problem is that the people are not able to deal with the bad time .... it happens in every relation ... people can never have a relation without bad times ... if both the partners understand this ... everything will go fine ... I think that people should fight the bad time not run away from it .... like you said .. I am sure you will have a very good love relation when you meet your right person ... good luck :)

Idk I think you are. Someone who cant, by the way you describe it, let go of someone who hurt you. You just need to be strong enough to let go of that person and start new again. I think because you cant let go is what makes you pathetic. But as far as that goes you arent the only pathetic person in the world. And just because I think you are doesnt truly make you one. I could be misunderstanding something. Sorry if Im being too harsh but I wont lie......

no you are not pathetic you just need to find a new love!