Why Is It So Hard to Find?
I used to believe so strongly in true love. I still do, but it's more like a distant memory now, something I read in a book a long time ago. I have so much of myself to give, so much to share with the person I might one day be with. All I want is to treat that person better than they've ever been. I want to be able to open myself to them. I want to have complete, beautiful trust, to love and accept them for who they are and be accepted in return..
Do I believe in fairytale love? Absolutely. It does exist. And if I stop believing in that, I think I may as well be dead inside.
It's such a simple concept. You'd think love would be one of the easier things in life to recognize, but today everyone walks around pretending to be something they're not. I'd give up everything I've ever owned just to find that one thing in life I know will give me fufillment. I don't want money. I don't need a high-paying job or to be extremely successful. I just want that one person by my side. I'd fight and die for that unbelievable chance without a second thought.
There is no greater feeling in the world than knowing you have exactly what you want in life laying right next to you. I know this because, while I haven't -been- loved, I have loved. I spent two months recently with the girl I thought would be my wife someday. I'm undyingly grateful for those two months. They showed me what I should really be looking for in life. In the end, she didn't have very strong feelings for me. I don't think anything has ever hurt worse than that before. It's been nearly a year and it still hurts pretty badly just thinking about it. But I'll never forget the time we shared of the feelings I experienced. Nothing will ever be the same for me now that I know what I'm looking for.