Desperate Desire

All my life I've been Neglected/Abused ever since I was but a small child. (A Baby) Now I'm so down in the Dumps of Depression, that I wish I could be a baby again, but a girl named Ailani Moon. Whoever has any idea to whom I can speak about changing my gender to a girl, and somehow becoming a baby again, let me know as soon as u possibly can. Waaah! Waaah!