Life is hard. There's no book written step by step for what's right or wrong, or how marriage should or shouldn't be, how to or not to raise your kids. You just have to follow your heart.

I've been married for a year and a half and even though I've been dreaming and waiting to get married since a little girl it is not what I imagined. Does everyone feel like this? I want to be positive because I do love my husband and truly believe in marriage..but sometimes deep inside my heart I don't feel happy.

My dad, and brothers respect women. My hubby does too but not to the same extent. I'm not sure how I didn't notice things before we married.

I'm finding I'm analyzing situations and think in my head that my dad or brother would never talk to their wives like the way my husband just did to me. It's heartbreaking at times. I held marriage on a petastool my whole life. Am I wrong for playing back the times he's a big jerk in my head, and imagining how he is wrong and so and so doesn't treat his wife that way. I'm just not sure what line to follow. I've been in a controlling abusive relationship before my husband. Ours isn't to that extent but there is small controlling and some manipulation on his part.

No one is perfect. I'm not for sure. I guess I have an ideal image in my mind how I want to live my life, how my husband would be to my kids and I.. Does this not exist?

He does love me and works his butt off for his family. He has admirable qualities but honestly he can be the biggest *** hole I've ever met. Isn't that sad? I'm on the fence. We do great for days on end then we fight, we fight at least every week/every other week for sure. We have a lot of obstacles also. He has 2 boys from previous relationship and I have one daughter. And we have a 11 month old son together. We are both 26 years old. Any advice would be great :-)
MsMoon2013 MsMoon2013
26-30, F
Sep 2, 2014