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I'll hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes

  ~ Possession, Sarah McLachlan

I received a full ride to university thanks to my debate scholarship.  The Soroptimist Club was kind enough to foot the bill for my graduate program.  And a gentleman writer offered to pay my way at a class on how to rape a man's ***. 

him‬: there is an upcoming class in the city on rape play. Wanna go with me?

‪me‬: oh my 
* blushes *
or did you just make that up?

‪him‬: no, I'm serious, its focus is on women raping men
with anal sex
‪me‬: Holy hell.
‪him‬: but can be applied to all genders, the anal sex is the equalisor as the instructor explains it
‪me‬: man, I would love to go to that

‪him‬: it is on the 10th
‪me‬: Saturday?
No can do.
I am sorry, honestly.
‪him‬: sorry not the 10
‪me‬: That would have been interesting.

‪him‬: 13th
‪me‬: That is a possibility 
How much does the class cost?
‪him‬: Fantasies of rape and violation are powerful and appealing, but challenging to properly fulfill. How can we abduct, control and violate someone in a way that is erotically satisfying for all parties? How can we “rape” with severity but without lasting damage? From the psychological preliminaries, to the actual enactment, to the aftershocks, we must conduct our “rapes” with savvy and care. This class will forcefully present the many vicissitudes of violation, with a particular focus on how to ravish safely and erotically. We will primarily focus on violating male bodies, but all genders will be covered, and anal rape will receive special attention since it equalizes us. Bring an open mind, erotic sensitivity and your predatorial or victim drive.
8 to 10pm

‪me‬: That is something else again, fella. 
How much does it cost?
I've not exactly budgeted for such excursions, y'know?
‪him‬: i will get this one for you if you take notes for me
‪me‬: ha
so I'm supposed to go by myself?!
No way.
I am not that brave.
I have a pal taking me to my first ***** club sometime this spring.
and I had a friend accompany me to the sex toy shop.
I am a wimpy suburban matron.
But thank you for the offer.
‪him‬: i didn't mean for you to go alone
‪me‬: No?
‪him‬: i want to go to it as well
i just take really really bad notes
‪me‬: Bahahahaaha!
You are killing me.
This may be an offer I cannot refuse.
I need to think about this.

‪him‬: remember the class is geared towards female dominatrix handling their male subs

I know you're probably wondering if I went.  Well, I am sorry to report I did not.  The timing just didn't work out.  I wish it had.  There are a lot of men out there who want a woman to take them in the ***.  To relinquish control and have that feeling of abandon.  I understand a little of that.  I've looked at a lot of BDSM sites.  I've no interest in scratchy ropes or painful bondage, but some Italian silk ties holding me in place while a man has his way with me?  Yes, please.

And it seems only fair that I'd return the favour.  To possess a lover thus?  Yes, please.  In fact, I insist.

I've read a few stories about rape.  Usually it's a man raping a woman.  There are entire websites devoted to the topic, with chatrooms and roleplaying galore.  Some is very mild, but it ranges to some pretty horrifying snuff type of stuff.  I've received a few stories from gentlemen in which they describe a scene where they take me forcibly.  But prior to them sending the notes, they've verified with me that such a scene would be welcome.  That I have an interest in serving as prey.  These guys are all about safe, sane, concensual rape.  I know....it sounds crazy.  But they are careful men, unwilling to alarm a lady, merely seeking to give her the thrill of being hunted and captured.

Now, don't freak out and report Milky as some sort of stalker/rapist gal.  I'm not.  But there is a certain appeal to be the one who plays the villain.  Snidely Whiplash always seemed far more interesting than Dudley Do-Right.  I have no interest in tying Nell to the railroad tracks.  But there are a few gentlemen whose wrists and ankles I'd like to lash to the bedposts.  As it happens, I know full well that it's precisely what they desire. 

I was looking for a music lyric that fit this story, and I stumbled across Possession by Sarah McLachlan.   The good people of Wikipedia provided this fascinating info about the song:

In 1994, McLachlan was sued by Uwe Vandrei, an obsessed fan from Ottawa, Ontaio, who alleged that his love letters to her had been the basis of "Possession". This lawsuit never came to trial as the plaintiff committed suicide.

The lawsuit was also challenging for the Canadian legal system; the suit was essentially a frivolous complaint by Vandrei, a self-admitted stalker, in an attempt to get close to McLachlan, and the trial was delayed significantly by discussions of how to ensure McLachlan's physical safety during the proceedings.

In an interview in Rolling Stone  three years later, McLachlan added, "And this one person wasn't the only guy ... there were a lot of letters from other people saying the same kind of thing ... Writing the song 'Possession' was very therapeutic."


Listen as the wind blows
From across the great divide
Voices trapped in yearning
Memories trapped in time
The night is my companion
And solitude my guide
Would I spend forever here
And not be satisfied

And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd, wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes dear

Through this world I've stumbled
So many times betrayed,
Trying to find an honest word,
To find the truth enslaved,
Oh you speak to me in riddles and
You speak to me in rhymes
My body aches to breathe your breath,
Your words keep me alive


Into this night I wander,
It's morning that I dread,
Another day of knowing of
The path I fear to tread,
Oh, into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride,
Nothing stands between us here
And I won't be denied


I'll hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes
milkynips milkynips
46-50, F
1 Response May 9, 2012

Isn't it an interesting challenge to generate realistic fear without trauma.<br />
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I've attended workshops by Midori which included a segment on negotiating erotic scenes and the psychology of erotic scene play.<br />
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I'd love to have attended with both you and Affinity! Being a good switch would make for some interesting combinations.