By My Family And Friends

I am finally learning to accept who I really am. I would like so much for my family and friends to as well. I just want my parents and my sister to accept and love me for who I am too.
When I came out to my friends, about half of them turned their backs on me. I am sorry that I offended or hurt them. It was never my intent to deceive them. However, I neither can nor will change who I really am. I pretended to be someone that I am not for long enough. I need to be true to myself now.
My brother accepts and supports me. However, my mother and sister won't. They refuse to call me by the correct gender identifiers. They refuse to understand that this is just who I am and that it's not something that I choose to be. I don't want to hear my mother tell me that I am ruining my life any more.
My dad passed away a couple of years before I started coming to terms with things. I would like to think that he would have accepted me. I can't help but fear that he wouldn't have. I would give anything to shake my dads hand, man to man. He's the person that taught me to be the man that I am. I want more than anything to know that he would have respected and loved me for who I am.
lyricaldemise lyricaldemise
41-45, T
Jan 9, 2013