Used By Two Cousins

Not sure how to do this...when I was 10 years old, my aunt brought two of my older cousins to stay with us for awhile. There was an old r.v that I used as a club house. I had about 20 gay magazines, 12 shemale magazines, a couple of ******, and other sex toys, and lotion stashed in a trunk under my "bed", ( I slept in the r.v sometimes). Oh, fyi, all of my brothers were grown, and gone. Well, I was at school when my aunt, and cousins arrived. When I got home, I had to do chores (which took me an hour), then homework (30 minutes). Then I went out to my club house. I did not realize that my cousins were snoops, or I would have locked my door. Well, I am still standing at the door about to open when I hear mumbling. I open it, and step inside...they both had their pants down around their knees, and jacking off to a gay magazine. "Are these yours? Your mom said this is your club house" They obviously had no problem with my liking other boys, or men, so I said yes. "Have you ever done anything?" "No, haven't had the chance." They both turned, and motioned for me to take my clothes off, so I did. Until now, I had never stood nude around other (nude) boys, it felt awkward, but I still had no problem getting aroused. My **** seemed to have a mind of its own, and got harder than it ever had. The oldest one, Frank, told me to get on my knees. I did, and he stepped over, opened my mouth, and stuck his 6 inch uncut **** in it. Then he put his hands on the back of my head, and started pushing his **** as far into my mouth as he could. I gagged for about 5 minutes until I learned to relax my throat to allow it further in. My other cousin, Jason, was caressing my *** with one, and jacking me off with the other...cut through some long, boring scenes...later that night, I was sleeping in my club house. They snuck out, and came inside. I was already nude, because we agreed to meet later, and have sex. I no time, they were nude. I grabbed a bottle of lotion. Frank asked me if I had ever been f****ed in my a**, I said no. He said, "It is going to hurt like hell." "Well, I don't want to get f****ed then." With a smile, he pulled my legs into the air, Jason grabbed, and held them when I started struggling. Frank was putting lotion on my a**hole when I started to yell. Jason then gags me, with a shirt I think. After Frank penetrated me, and had been in my a** for about 10 minutes, I was too tired to fight (they were strong country boys). Jason removed the gag, and pulled my head back, and down. He opened my mouth, and stuck his 6 inch **** in, all the way in. They had sex with me like that for most of the night, switching mouth for a**, and a** for mouth. They came several times, in & on me. Their *** tasted kind of sweet. Frank was in my mouth, when he said he had to ****. Jason told him to go in my mouth. That was a fantasy of mine...drinking another boys' ****. So I was all for it. Still, not even asking, he pissed down my throat. It was a little salty, but it aroused me so much I came, maybe 1/4 a cup. Jason stopped long enough to lick my *** off of my stomach, then started again. This went on for a year, and a half, until my aunt found a place to live. Now, I am 34 years old, and would love for that to happen again. Not with them...they're married.