I Thought I Was

I thought that I was his everything but now I am starting to question it. I know he loves me but I dont think that he puts me first, like I want to be.. Sometimes I think about it and it makes me just want to give up on him and on life all together. I am so sick of fighting, I have to fight to live, to stay clean, and to keep the man that I  love. 

I just want him to want me the way  I want him, I would do anything for him to love me the way I love him.  Everyday he tells me that he loves me even though he recently cheated on me, so now everytime he walks out of the house I think to myself 'who is the ***** is going meet'.. I am positive that if I knew who she was I would beat the living hell  out of her...

imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
18-21, F
1 Response Jul 26, 2012

Oh gosh! U're the feeling the same as how I do! I also thought I was his everything till the day he did something very 'unusual' and that's it u know. I don't trust him as much as I used to be and though he say love me everyday, is it really?? That is what I asked myself.