It Used To Be

Aww, you know you're special. I even added you so I could be one of those who could tell ya from time to time in case you forget

Oh can I ever relate to this. This could have been written by me it's so close to how I feel. This pain is more than I ever bargained for and I don't know how to cope with it. I just miss him so much. The realization that it's over hit me like a MAC truck 4 months ago and I'm still emotionally at rock bottom. No one knows, and no one would understand even if they did know. But it's hard to wear a pretend happy face every single say when I feel so dead and worthless inside.

You are special, everyone is in their own way. I have a similar online relationship, sometimes i feel like i 'want it' more than my special person does, but i know that their life has other demands on it than my time, but still it hurts to have to wait, but i do feel pushy sometimes and dont want to overstep any boundaries.

Relationships evolve, it is natural, and sometimes they evolve in a direction we are not happy with.

It is hard.

And emotional.

I feel for you.

You are special and hopefully find a friend who will make you feel the same again, is hard to find a person like that *hugs*

Sometimes it's more painful to maintain a loving relationship with someone whom you can't have. I know you believe that your relationship was purely platonic but once again I must agree with justmeonline here. Your relationship sounds exactly like one that I had not long ago. We both seemed to love each other but we couldn't be together because of circumstances. Eventually the thought of not being able to be with someone you love can really wear you down. Every conversation you have is a reminder of the unattainable, and that sucks more than words can express.



Disassociation of emotions would be necessary if you must maintain the relationship. If he could not not separate his emotions of love for you in your friendship it would have become very difficult for him to maintain it.



Just a thought.

All I pray that someday you may find your lost love and his friendship for you.And, you get everything back that you used to have in your life. Blesss uuuuuu!!!!!

Fungirl, I'm so sorry that this has happened to you. I know all too well how bad it feels. If he is truly what you want, then I hope he wakes up soon and figures that out and if not, I hope you meet the most amazing man ever that will shower you with the love and attention that you so richly deserve.

You are very special to me, fungirl!

You know. I don't "think" he was ever "in love" with me but I know that what we had was one of the most special loves of my lifetime. It is something I can't explain in words. What is funny is that I have no clue why we don't have that any longer. Thanks everyone for your comments. (Group hug.)

Everyone seems to use me,what is wrong with me?

I'm inclined to agree with justmeonline on this one. It seems highly likely. Probably the only reason a man would refuse to be friends with a woman he genuinely cares for. I've been there and let me tell you, it is torture.



If that's the case then he is so much more pain than you can imagine. It's like severing an infected limb to save the rest of your body. You don't want to do it but deep down you know you need to just to survive.

You ARE special....♥

FG, sorry to seem presumptuous, but I'm wondering could it have been he was in love with you, and wanted to not be just a friend, but couldn't express that, or did, and was rejected? That's the only explanation I could think of for what you seem to describe, though I don't know full details.



Am sorry you've been treated like this in any case.

Awww.... fungirlmmm, (((HUGS)))

Many hugs to you FunG. My words can not change any of the feelings you are having today. Sorry.but just know I am thinking of you.

~All4mmm :-)

((hugs)) Losing a close friend is always difficult.