Okay, before I start my experience, I just want to say, I feel great right now. Right now, I feel like I want to live a good long healthy life, find my soul mate, start a family, see the world, etc. Right now, I have plans of living well into my 80s, if not longer. That's how I feel right now.

Right now.

The thing is that I do suffer from severe depression, and some days, I want someone to come along and end it all for me. On those days, I actually fantasize about it, and yes, those fantasies consist of me being strangled to death, either by a man or a woman.

Why strangulation? Why choose to want to die in such a violent and painful way? Well, as I mentioned in a previous post, I like to be strangled (for my EP friends on here who didn't read that post, don't worry; I did mention that I don't practice on myself and I can have healthy relationships that don't involve talking about strangulation). It's not something I'm proud of, but it is the truth. I have experienced it before. I know how painful it gets. And yet, for some reason, that makes it all the more exciting for me.

Anyway, back to the post. A lot of days I do feel healthy and happy and I enjoy being alive. But there are those aggressively dark days where I walk through a nearby park and I hope that a man or a woman is waiting behind a tree somewhere with a string in their hand, ready to strangle the life out of me.

Some dark days I come on here to EP, looking at those groups that say "I am a murderer" or "I am a Sadist" or "I like Strangling" and hope to find someone near here who would be interested in ending it all for me. I haven't talked to anyone in those groups, but there are days when the temptation is overwhelming.

I'm writing this not to get people to feel sorry for me, and not to get someone to come and murder me (although if there is anyone interested, I will talk about it with you). I'm writing this to open up, to hopefully battle those demons (writing does that for me), and to just be honest. Right now, I would like to die an old man, but on those days where I feel like I want to be murdered, strangulation would be the way to go.
Whoami30 Whoami30
31-35, M
1 Response Aug 18, 2014

hey, id love to strangle you, id love to be the one to take your life.

If you're serious, message me.

well i mean im having second thoughts on this because police and all that and im not getting my self arrested, but we can do a strangling fantasy if you so wish in a rp

I do! And I didn't want you to kill me anyway! Today's a good day! 😜

But I would love to do strangling fantasy in RP

Darn. I was hoping you were serious about RP strangling fantasy.

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